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Captured *** BETA *** Trashed *** Falling Away


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Have a wonderful weekend.



Dear Bloggers,

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First, I want to say THANK YOU. It’s so difficult as an author who writes in as many sub-genres of romance to make great relationships will all these little blogging communities and groups. I’ve been lucky to work with so many of you.  Your support of my work means so much to me. I like to think of bloggers as book cheerleaders and super-readers. You are the best at shouting out your love for books and that’s just so cool. You rock! I’ve been working hard on a bunch of new books I have coming out from now to the first week of next year. All of them are sequels to books you probably have heard of. Since I know that everyone has different tastes, I want YOU to pick which books you would like to promote or highlight on your blog.


August 12th – CAPTURED (WOUNDED) – *standalone sequel

October 21st – BETA (ALPHA) – *sequel

November 25th- TRASHED (STRIPPED) – *standalone sequel

And January 6th FALLING AWAY (FALLING UNDER) – *sequel


I’ve decided I can’t do formal tours for these books since I have them coming back to back. I’m honestly not sure how effective tours are anymore and I think they are a TON of work for both you and me. I would still love to work together with you to get the word out and thank your followers, who are also my readers.


If you are interested in reading any of these books, please send me an email at When you send it please link your review for the previous book. I would also like to know what your plans are for your specific blog and this title. If you have out-of-the box ideas, I would LOVE to hear them. I will be picking 10-15 blogs to partner with me for each title. I won’t be picking based on numbers, I just I really want a good variety of readers and cheerleaders.  So, please don’t think your blog is too small.


If you have any questions please feel free to email. I can’t wait to hear from you!

Teaser Tuesday: CAPTURED

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Thomas, my love. 


I’m writing this in our bed. You’re lying next to me, sleeping. 

There’s so much I wish I could say to you, but I know time is short. You ship out tomorrow. Again. I can’t say it doesn’t bother me. It does. Of course it does. It hurts every time. I act brave for you, but I hate it. I hate watching you lace up your boots. I hate watching you pack your bag. I hate watching you straighten your tie in the mirror. I hate how goddamned sexy you look in your uniform. Most of all, I hate kissing you goodbye, hate watching you turn around, your broad back straight as you disappear down the jetway. I hate that your eyes are dry when mine are wet.

I hate all that. I know I signed up for it when I married a Marine. I knew from the very beginning that you’d go into combat. I knew it, and married you anyway. How could I not? I loved you so much from the very beginning, from the first time I saw you, all those years ago. 

You remember? I was visiting my brother at Twentynine Palms, and I saw you running with your unit. You looked right at me, and I knew in that very instant that we were going to be together forever. You dropped out of rank, ran over to me. You kissed me. Right there, your drill instructor yelling at you, in front of half the damn base. You didn’t even ask my name. You just kissed me, and rejoined your unit. You got in a lot of trouble for that stunt. But you found me. You knew my brother, who was walking with me at the time. You asked him who I was a few days later. He said he’d let you have a shot if I was willing, but if you broke my heart, he’d break your face. You showed up at my hotel room dressed in civvies. You took me to Olive Garden and we got drunk on red wine. We made love that night in my hotel room. You remember that night? I do. I remember every single moment.

Just like I remember every other moment of our lives together. Eight years. Did you know that? You ship out tomorrow, and tomorrow is the eight-year anniversary—to the day—of the first time we met, when you kissed me. 

God, Tom. You know why I remember every single moment? Because for most of our ten years together, you’ve been deployed. Three tours in Iraq, about to ship out for your third in Afghanistan. I miss you, Tom. Every day, I miss you. Even when you’re home, I miss you, because I know you’re always about to leave again.

But this time? This ship-out? It’s the hardest. So hard. I can’t take it. Can’t stand it. I can’t, Tom. I can’t watch you leave again, knowing you could die. You might not come back. You didn’t tell much of what happened with your friend from your unit, Hunter, when he went MIA, but I know it was painful for everyone. He came back, thank god, but you were a mess. You called me from the base. You were going crazy with worry. You thought he was dead. Your friend Derek was injured too. I remember all that. And I just…I don’t think I could handle it if that happened to you.

Especially not now. 

I’ve gone in circles over this a million times in my head. I’ve nearly told you so many times. But I just can’t. It’ll make it harder for you to leave, and I know it’s hard enough as it is. It’ll make it harder for me if I told you in person. You’re going to be mad at me for not telling you. I know, and I’m sorry. But this is just the only way that makes sense to me. 

I’m pregnant, Tom. 

I’m going to have your baby. 

I wasn’t sure, at first. I thought maybe it was just stress of knowing your leave was ending making me miss my period. But then I took a test. Three of them, actually. 

I’m pregnant. God, I’m pregnant. I’m going to have a baby. 

Please come home to me, Tom. Come home alive. No matter what, you have to come back. I need you. Our baby will need you. 

I love you so, so much, Tom. More than I’ll ever be able to say. You’ll be fine. You’ll come back to me. To US.


Always, always yours,




P.S.: I hope it’s a boy. I want him to look just like you.    


Jack and Djinn is LIVE!

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”Another winner from the amazingly talented Jasinda Wilder. I never once doubted the author’s ability to deliver a compelling story, one stretching the boundaries in regards to her norm, but this is pure genius – creativity at it’s best. 5 stars! ” – Brandi’s Bookshelf

“Jack and Djinn is a step outside the norm for a Jasinda Wilder book, but that just makes it so much more impressive! Wilder takes a gander at the paranormal romance genre, and produces an original and exciting read” -Amazon reader 

Watch the Jack and Djinn book trailer: CLICK HERE

Miriam’s life is a hot mess. Ben won’t let her go and she knows she can’t take anymore. She simply will not and cannot withstand another insult, another drunken rage, another blow. But she has nowhere to go, no one to help her.

One night, Ben’s alcohol-fueled abuse explodes hotter than it ever has before, and Miriam isn’t sure she’ll survive it this time.

Then Miriam meets Jack. Sweet, handsome, brave, and totally unafraid of the strange and often scary things that have begun happening whenever Miriam’s emotions run high.

As things between Miriam and Jack heat up, so does Ben’s jealous rage, as well as the mysterious fire that seems to burn hotter and hotter inside Miriam. She quickly discovers two things: one, that she has a lot more power and strength hidden within herself than she’d ever imagined, and two, that Jack’s gentle, unwavering love can heal a lifetime of wounds and scars.

Will they survive to explore all that could be between them? 

***This is a sexy, heart-stopping, full-length (80,000+ words) standalone novel.***

Hi readers! Happy weekend! 

I hope everyone is having a great summer! Gosh, it was such a long winter up here in northern Michigan. I was starting to think it would never end. I’m wishing for many days of fun and sun. If you are looking for a HOT book to enjoy by the pool or on the beach, please consider picking up Jack and Djinn. Available now! This book has a bit of everything, steam, magic, suspense, sex. 🙂

I hope you all enjoy it! Thanks so much for always reading and reviewing. My readers ROCK! 

Please continue to check my website ( for updated event and book info. You can always chat with me on Facebook and Twitter too! 

Have a great weekend! 

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Miriam’s life is a hot mess. Ben won’t let her go and she knows she can’t take anymore. She simply will not and cannot withstand another insult, another drunken rage, another blow. But she has nowhere to go, no one to help her. 

One night, Ben’s alcohol-fueled abuse explodes hotter than it ever has before, and Miriam isn’t sure she’ll survive it this time.

Then Miriam meets Jack. Sweet, handsome, brave, and totally unafraid of the strange and often scary things that have begun happening whenever Miriam’s emotions run high.

As things between Miriam and Jack heat up, so does Ben’s jealous rage, as well as the mysterious fire that seems to burn hotter and hotter inside Miriam. She quickly discovers two things: one, that she has a lot more power and strength hidden within herself than she’d ever imagined, and two, that Jack’s gentle, unwavering love can heal a lifetime of wounds and scars.

Will they survive to explore all that could be between them?


Click here to watch the trailer! 


Alpha is HERE!

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It turns out $120,000 doesn’t come free.

Today is the BIG DAY! Alpha is now live everywhere! I really hope you enjoy this one. It’s HOT! Here are a few early reviews to get you excited about it. Please visit all of the blogs leaving reviews with the tour and enter to win the big prize packages I’m giving away. Kindles, gift cards, signed paperbacks and more!

“I think Alpha might be the hottest book I have read since E.L. James’ Fifty Shades of Grey!” ~ The Little Black Book Blog
“Super Sexy and suspenseful. The hottest book I’ve read this year with a chemistry that set the pages ablaze and a mystery that gripped me beginning to end!”Vilma’s Book Blog
“This is possibly one of the most addictive books I’ve ever had the pleasure of reading. Mind blowing and intense. Jasinda delivers a story that will leave you breathless and aching to the core.” ~ Brandi’s Bookshelf
“Holy Hotness! We all know Jasinda can write, but she takes it a step up in Alpha. I was on the edge of combustion the entire book. It was the perfect blend of mystery, hot sex, story and romance. Jasinda, my husband thanks you, and so do I.” ~Ana’s Attic Book Blog
“Make sure to have plenty of replacement panties at the ready because trust me, you’re going to need them. Jasinda Wilder writes sex so hot, I was afraid I was going to spontaneously combust from the intense heat.” ~ Bestsellers & Beststellars
“Alpha is a Smut Book Club Certified Favorite and absolutely worth every cent you pay because the return is hours of reading gratification.” ~ Smut Book Club

To purchase just click on your preferred bookseller.
Purchase Links:

Amazon UK
Google Play

Thank you all so much! I can’t express what my readers mean to me. Your support is just amazing! You rock! I hope to see some of you in Chicago this weekend, NOLA, and NYC later this month. Make sure to check my website for other events coming up!


Alpha Revealed!

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Mark your calendar and click that pre-order button today.

April 29th is the big day! Make sure to head on over to the USA Today HEA blog and read the full excerpt and watch an exclusive video with me about Alpha. You won’t want to miss what everyone is talking about.


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The first time it happened, it seemed like an impossible miracle. Bills were piling up, adding up to more money than I could ever make. Mom’s hospital bills. My baby brother’s tuition. My tuition. Rent. Electricity. All of it on my shoulders. And I had just lost my job. There was no hope, no money in my account, no work to be found. And then, just when I thought all hope was lost, I found an envelope in the mail. No return address. My name on the front, my address. Inside was a check, made out to me, in the amount of ten thousand dollars. Enough to pay the bills and leave me some left over to live on until I found a job. Enough to let me focus on classes. There was no name on the check, just “VRI Inc.,” and a post office box address for somewhere in the city. No hint of identity or reason for the check or anything. No mention of repayment, interest, nothing…except a single word, on the notes line: “You.” Just those three letters.

If you receive a mysterious check, for enough money to erase all your worries, would you cash it?

I did.

The next month, I received another check, again from VRI Incorporated. It too contained a single word: “belong.”

A third check, the next month. This time, two words. Four letters. “To me.”

The checks kept coming. The notes stopped. Ten thousand dollars, every month. A girl gets used to that, real quick. It let me pay the bills without going into debt. Let me keep my baby brother in school and Mom’s hospice care paid for. How do you turn down what seems like free money, when you’re desperate? You don’t. I didn’t.

And then, after a year, there was a knock on my door. A sleek black limousine sat on the curb in front of my house. A driver stood in front of me, and he spoke six words: “It’s time to pay your debt.”

Would you have gotten in?

I did.

It turns out $120,000 doesn’t come free.

***This is a sexy, heart-stopping, full-length standalone novel.***

Falling Into You ~ One year giveaway!

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Thank you so much for the past amazing year! I can’t wait to see what the next year will bring.

Please watch the giveaway video here:

Make sure to enter to win this awesome giveaway gift pack, which includes:

A Team Wild t-shirt, The Falling Into You painting, AND a signed, special edition hardcover of Falling Into You!

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The one year Anniversary of Falling Into You…Surprise!

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It’s the one year Anniversary of publishing Falling Into You!

One year ago today, my husband and I hit “publish” on a book that would change our lives. We’d written the book in a frenzy of desperation, watching titles climb the charts and wondering if we too could put out that kind of story. We wanted to write something different, something daring and risky and difficult. We wanted to use our lives, the stories we’d collected over the years, friends who’d gone through hard times, our own difficulties, and tie it all together with a liberal dose of fiction.

Thus was Falling Into You born. We wrote in a fever, hunched over our laptops, hoping it was okay, hoping it would touch the tastebuds of the wildly ravenous NA audience and be found satisfying.

One year ago today, we moved our mouse a few centimeters, clicked the button, and rolled the dice. What if people hate it? What if it doesn’t sell? What if…what if…what if? Hitting that “publish” button is scary, every single time. No matter how many times you do it—and we’ve done thirty-some times now—it’s still nerve-wracking. That moment, one year ago? Possibly the most tension-fraught moment of our career to date.

Until now.

Today we hit “publish” on something people have been asking about since Falling Into You came out: a third book in the Falling series. It’s called Falling Under, and it’s about…well, you know what? I don’t think I can even begin to tell you. All I will say is Colt and Nell are in it, Jason and Becca are in it, and it’s intense, in a way not even the first two are. And we’re even more nervous and excited about this one than we were FIY.

We’ve had one hell of a ride since FIY started its meteoric rise on the charts. That book established our brand, our style. It propelled us into a place Jack and I never, in our wildest dreams, ever thought we’d be. We still can’t believe that this is our life, that we get to write stories for a living, that we get tap into everything we’ve been through, tap into all of our creativity and all of our talents, and use them to make a living.

So, as we publish this book, we would like to take a moment and say thank you. To all of you, everyone who bought our books, who shared the word with friends and family members and coworkers and blogosphere buddies. You’ve made our career possible. You’ve given us a gift, with each review, each purchase, each share, that we can never repay. We love you. Each and every one of you. We’re thankful for you, and we always will be. We will continue to write books as long as you continue to buy them and review them and share them. (Here’s a secret: word of mouth is still the biggest factor of our success. Every time you tell a friend and introduce them to our books, you are doing us the biggest favor possible.) We will write books that will, hopefully, move you, touch you, challenge you, entice you and make you hot and make you cry. And trust me, we have so many stories to tell that we could write every single day for five years and I’d still have a Notes app full of story ideas.

So…thank you. We love you. I hope you enjoy Falling Under, and please, if you do…tell a friend.

Until the next time I hit “publish” (in April),



P.S. The book will be available EVERYWHERE today! It’s already live at ibooks and kobo. Amazon and B&N should have it up very soon!

Saving Forever release day!

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Saving Forever is HERE!

***Forever & Always *** After Forever *** Saving Forever***

Happy Valentine’s Day to all of my WILD READERS! I am so excited about the launch of Saving Forever today. This trilogy has been one heck of a roller coaster. I really hope you all enjoy the third and final book.
I have Forever & Always on sale for 99 cents for a limited time, so make sure and tell friends to pick it up now before it goes back to the regular $4.99 price.

Here are a few quotes from early reviewers:

“Beautiful. Epically, amazingly beautiful. Honestly one of the best, most brilliant series I’ve ever read.”~ GingerRead Review
“A perfect completion to the emotional and impossibility-filled Ever Trilogy. This novel bares all with its characters and delivers a series of events that emotionally bare all to you. Full of hope and forgiveness, this novel forces you to see every situation in a different light. It opens this world up to you and leaves you raw, filled with hope. Her best work yet.” ~ Novel Grounds

Below are links purchase Saving Forever. Thank you so much for reading and reviewing. Your wonderful reviews mean the world to me. I can’t tell you how much I appreciate each and every one.

Amazon US link HERE
Amazon UK link HERE
Barnes & Noble link HERE
iTunes link HERE
Kobo link HERE
Google Play link HERE

Make sure to check out the blog tour. I’m giving away a ton of prizes including a fancy Kindle fire, signed books, and gift cards!

I’d love it if you would take a few minutes and watch the video blogs I did for the tour. They give some further insight to the story, writing and charters in this trilogy.

Just click the link HERE to watch.

Thank you all so much for reading and taking this journey with me. I can’t express to you how awesome it is to have such amazing readers.

Keep an eye out for a big surprise coming next month. I can’t give details but you won’t want to miss this.

Wishing you all an amazeballs Valentine’s Day!


Excerpt from Saving Forever

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From Saving Forever, “brushstrokes and ruins” (CADE)


Except for the months of pleasure I’d known with Ever before the accident, it seemed like my entire life had been nothing but pain. I knew, intellectually, that wasn’t true. Mom had died when I was fourteen and life had been great up until then. Mom and Dad loved me. Grams and Gramps loved me. I spent summers at the ranch, and had my art at home. I’d had fourteen years of happiness. I was nearly twenty-three. That meant not quite ten years of hell.

But never had pain felt like this. Ever needed me. She refused to face the truth I knew she saw in me. I knew she’d seen the guilt in me. I’d nearly told her the truth a few times. But I always chickened out. Justified it by telling myself Ever need more time to heal, to recover, to regain herself, her life.

So months passed, and my guilt ate me alive. I loved her as fiercely as ever, but it was overshadowed by the lies, the guilt, the agony of knowing I’d betrayed her. I wasn’t sleeping more than a few hours a night. I woke up tormented by nightmares, wracked with guilt. I woke up and stared at Ever, asleep in our bed next to me, clinging to me, her sweet soft arm across my chest, her breathing soughing in the darkness. And I wanted to shake her awake and tell her to leave me, to find someone worthy of her perfection. I wanted to confess, so I could be free of the secret, rid of the weight of my silent sin. It festered within me, rotting and acidic, poisonous.

I couldn’t eat. I worked, went to the gym, tried to chase my demons away. Tried, and failed.

I felt weak. I felt like life was passing me by, and I was missing it. Ever was getting better every day. She was speaking normally, moving around on her own. Dressing herself, eating by herself. She wasn’t an invalid anymore. I didn’t have to take care of her, much. She needed me for things here and there, but overall, she was making almost miraculous progress. Which meant the day I told her the truth was growing closer. And that meant I was that much closer to letting her go. I’d tell her the truth, and I’d leave. She’d be heartbroken, but it was better than this web of falsehood I was caught up in.

She made love to me with wild abandon. Kissed me as if she was drowning and I was her air. I once had been, but only I knew that I couldn’t be any longer. I kissed her back, because she needed me to, and I couldn’t help but to kiss her back. But I felt as if each kiss was tainting her with the venom of my guilt. As if she could taste the truth on my lips. As if she’d kiss me, touch me, hold me, make love to me, and she might look at me and know. Divine the truth of my sick sin and confront me before I could tell her myself.

It was my nightmare, waking me up every night. Caden, she would say. Her mouth wouldn’t move, but I would hear her words tolling like bells in my skull, and her eyes would be sad and tearful and angry and confused and lost. What did you do? Why? Why her? Why couldn’t you wait for me? Why couldn’t you have faith that I’d come back? WHY HER? And I wouldn’t have any answers. I could only offer her apologies, and those were useless. They were as pointless as the condolences at a funeral. “I’m sorry for your loss,” people always said, as if that had any power to soothe the grief.

Just the same, “I’m so sorry, Ever,” couldn’t possibly contain any salve for the ruin of her heart when she found out what I’d done.


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Four months after she woke up, Ever came to me one day as I was making lunch for us both. “I want to paint again,” she said.

She hadn’t so much as looked at her paintings. She hadn’t gone into the studio, hadn’t attempted to draw, hadn’t even mentioned her art. It was too painful, I suspected. It was the hardest thing for her to have lost. Any other pain she could have faced, if only she had her art. But with that ability taken away, she had no way to cope. I didn’t think she had the courage to face the studio, to face the loss of the one thing that made her her.

I set the wooden spoon down on the stove, turned to look at her. She was holding on to the post of entryway to the kitchen with one hand, the other fidgeting with the hem of her T-shirt. She was watching me intently for my reaction.

I stepped toward her, wrapped her up in my arms. Her hair smelled like coconut shampoo, a different scent than I was used to. She still used the vanilla lotion, though, and I could smell that on her. That smell, the vanilla sugar lotion, it had the power to wreak havoc on me. I pressed my nose to her neck and inhaled, catching the scent of the lotion, and I was torn out of the present, thrown back two years to the moment when she opened her studio door and let me in, and I kissed her, smelling this same lotion on her skin, wafting from her in waves of seductive sweetness. And I was thrown back as well to the months of her coma. I’d stand at our dresser, holding the bottle of lotion. The cap would be open, and I’d squeeze the tube, just enough to let a current of the scent hit my nostrils, enough to torture me with missing her. And now I smelled it all over again, and it was her, and I’d destroyed us. She just didn’t know it yet.

I inhaled again, seeking courage in the pain of her scent and her arms around me, so trusting and so innocent and so needy. “You’re going to paint again?”

She nodded against me. “I have to try. I’m just warning you. I’ll probably have a nervous breakdown. So just…just be ready.”

I took her face in my hands, brought her chin up, met her vivid, fear-fraught green gaze with mine. Tried to seem steady and strong and loving. Tried to hide the guilt, which was an every-moment-of-every-day labor. “If you have a breakdown, I’ll be there to hold you.”

“That’s all I need.” Her eyes shone with faith.

The horrible thing about this guilt was that I still needed her, still loved her, still wanted her just as much as I ever had. More, perhaps. I would take as much as she would give me until she knew. Her faith may have been misplaced, but I would do my best to be there for her, for as long as I could. Time was short. Soon, everything would change. I knew it, and I was pretty sure she knew it as well.

Ever lifted up on her toes to kiss me, and her lips were gentle on mine, yet still demanding. I kissed her back, because I couldn’t do otherwise.

She backed away from me, and I followed her to the closed door of her studio. I wondered if she knew I’d seen her standing here, late at night, her hand on the knob, her shoulders shaking. I watched, and she never turned the knob. Never went in. So now, the scene was familiar. She stopped at the door, her hand on the knob. Her shoulders shook. I stood behind her, slid my arms around her waist. Kissed the back of her neck, just above the knob of her spine.

“What if it’s gone forever, Cade?” Her voice wasn’t even a whisper. It was…shreds of sound, ripped from somewhere deep within her.

“You’ve learned to walk again. You’ve learned to talk again. You can eat, dress, write. You can do this, Ever.” I had to give her hope, had to give her everything I could, while I was still here to give it to her. Even hard truths. “It will probably be hard as hell. You’ll think about giving up. But you won’t. You’re too strong and too courageous to give up. Art is in your veins, Ev. It’s who you are. And if you can’t paint, by some strange fluke, you’ll find some other way of making art.”

“I’m scared.” She leaned back against me, and I took all of her weight.

I crossed my my arms over her chest and stomach, kissed behind her ear. “You can do it. Just go in, Ev.”

“Baby steps?”

I chuckled. “Baby steps.”

She twisted the knob and gave the door a gentle push. It swung open on silent hinges, bumped against the wall and shivered to a stop. Everything was as she’d left it. I hadn’t dared touch a single thing in this room. An unfinished painting waited on the easel, a piece that reminded me of something Georgia O’Keefe might have painted. A Gerbera Daisy, seen from up close, an almost unlikely shade of violent orange, each petal seen in dramatic detail. The center of the flower dominated the piece, a ring of orange-red, each tiny fiber looking soft and real enough to touch. Only the edges of the painting remained to be finished, the outside of the petals. Ever stepped into the room, her eyes focused on the easel, on the painting. She walked to it as if in a trance, feet shuffling, one hand extending to touch the surface of the canvas. Her finger stroked the center of the painting, nail skritching on the dried oil paint.

“I remember painting this. I was trying to channel Georgia O’Keefe, but with my own touch on it.”

“You got it perfect.”

She remained stone-still, her fingers splayed on the canvas as if in some silent farewell. After a long silence, she spoke in a hesitant, reverent whisper. “It’s like me. Interrupted. Unfinished. Even if I could finish it, it wouldn’t be the same as if I’d finished it then.”

“Ever, you have to know—”

“I’m not that person anymore, Cade.” She let her hand drop, curling her fingers into a fist.

“I loved the person you were then, and I love the person you are now.” That, at least, was the pure, unvarnished truth.

“The problem is, I don’t know who I am anymore. I lost something. Some part of myself, and I don’t know what it is or how to get it back. And I know you love me.” Ever turned in my arms, brushed my hair away from my face. “And I love you. But…it’s not enough. You loving me doesn’t fix what’s wrong with me. And…goddamnit—” she squeezed her eyes shut and sighed, stifling a faint sob. “You’re not the same either. You’re broken too, Cade. Everything…everything is broken.”

I’d never seen this side of Ever, this raw and agonized despair. I didn’t know how to make it better. “I know.” It was all I could say. The only words that would come out. “I’m sorry. Fuck, Ever. I’m sorry.”

“For what?”

For betraying you. “For being broken when you need me to be whole.” I just couldn’t get the words out, the truth was lodged in my chest. “For…for everything.”

Her eyes searched me, and I saw the knowledge there. She knew. Not what, but that there was something to know, a truth hidden between us. A moment passed, and I met her gaze, unwavering. Pleading with her silently, begging her to demand the truth from me, to vilify me as I deserved. Instead, she clutched my face with shaking hands and drew my mouth down to hers and kissed me, and it seemed a vampiric kiss in a way, as if she was sucking strength from me, courage from me. I gave it willingly. She could take all of me, leave me limp and dead, if it would mean she was alive and happy.

Pulling away, breathless, she stepped back, searched the room for something. Found the age-soft and paint-splattered button-down white shirt, hanging on the back of a kitchen chair. Took it in her hands and stared at it. Memory showed in the bow of her shoulders. I stood, watching, waiting. Ever set the shirt on the chair back once more, reached down to the hem of the green V-neck she was wearing, pulled it off, folded it and set it on the seat of the chair. She didn’t spare me a glance; this wasn’t about me anymore; I was merely witness. Her fingers shook as she unzipped and unbuttoned her jeans, put them neatly atop her shirt. Standing in gray cotton panties and green silk bra, she was more beautiful to me than she’d ever been. Courage made her beautiful. Tenacity made her glow. To retake what was stripped so unfairly away took more guts than I’d ever have.

She had to pause for breath, pause to gather her nerves. And then, she reached up behind her back, freed the clasps of her bra and hung it from the corner of the chair back. She was facing away from me, and I couldn’t breathe for the sight of the curve of her bare back. I stared, branding the image into my mind. This moment, this vignette, it was now something sacred to me. She was physically exposed, emotionally vulnerable, braving her deepest fear, and she was doing it alone. I didn’t think she was even aware of my presence any longer, and in a way, that was as it should be. She’d have to learn to live without me.

She stepped out of her underwear, set them on the chair. Ever stood naked in her art studio, her pale skin pebbling from the chill in the air. I devoured her naked form with my eyes, buried the memory of this moment deep within me. I would need something to hold on to, when all fell apart.

At long last, she slid her arms into the sleeves of the shirt, buttoned it with shaky fingers, smoothed her hand down her front, over her hips, as if to press the reality into her skin, as if to tell herself that she was truly doing this, and that she could. I stood with my back to the wall near the door, willing her onward.

She took a black Sharpie from the tray of the easel and signed her name carefully to the bottom right corner of the daisy painting, and then, beneath that, wrote: “Interrupted”. Ever heaved a deep sigh, and lifted the four-by-six canvas from the easel, carried it across the room, set it on the floor with a stack of other finished paintings.

She considered it finished, I realized, and I understood the symbolism in her choice.

Four-by-six was her favorite size canvas to work with, and she had a stack of them pre-stretched. Ever chose a canvas, set it on the easel, added fresh paint to each primary color splotch on her palette. Chose a brush. Held the palette in one hand, her brush hanging at her side. Her chest rose and fell with heavy breaths, nervous and afraid to begin. I could almost hear her thoughts. What if I can’t do it? What if I forgot how?

She stood still and silent for a long time, staring at the blank canvas. I was beginning to think she’d frozen. She nodded once, and then set her brush down and chose a different one, a thick, fat brush for broad strokes. She touched the tip to the black paint, and I could see her hand trembling as she drew the brush across the middle of the canvas. It was a thick, gloppy stroke, a harsh line of black on the clean white. Another long pause, and then she flattened the brush against the black  paint and spread it around, added more, and more. With every stroke she grew more confident, and soon the whole canvas was black and she was filling in missed slices of white.

I couldn’t even begin to wonder what she was doing, and I didn’t dare ask. This was a private moment, one that belong only to Ever, and I was privileged to watch. I crossed my arms over my chest and kept silent, making sure even my breathing was quiet.

Ever set the black-smeared brush on the tray and picked up the one she’d originally chosen, a medium-point brush. She dabbed at the white paint, brought it in an arc horizontally across the canvas, refreshed the paint on the brush and made a mirrored arc to match the first. Slowly, then, she filled in the space between the arcs, merging the black and the white so that it seemed almost pixellated, as if the black was fading to white.

It wasn’t until she stepped back that I understood what she’d painted: an eye, opening.

“The moment you woke up,” I said. She only nodded. “You haven’t forgotten.”

Ever set her brush and palette down, turned in place to look at me, hesitated, and then ran and threw herself into my arms. She cried long and hard.

“I haven’t forgotten.” Relief filled her voice. “It’s not the same, though. Even that is different. I don’t—I’m not sure I can explain it. I don’t see things the same. When I think about painting something, even the images in my head are different than I remember them being, before.”


Her life was split into before and after.

For me, it wasn’t so simple. There was before, and there was after, and there was the unmitigated hell of between. During. That time, the during, that was what had broken me. I’d survived the loss of my parents, my grandparents. I may have survived the loss of Ever, if she’d actually died. But she didn’t. I’d lost her, but not completely. It wasn’t the pain of her loss, the agony of limbo, nor even the uncertainty of not knowing if she’d ever wake up that had done me in, though; it was the choices I’d made. The fact that I’d lost sight, lost hope, and betrayed her. And she’d woken up. I couldn’t undo it, couldn’t take it back. And even now, I wasn’t sure if I could have done anything differently. But that didn’t change the reality of my now. It didn’t alter the fact that when Ever found out, it would gut her.

And that would crumble even the ruins of what remained of me.

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The Ever Trilogy is Here

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The Ever Trilogy is here!

Forever & Always ~ After Forever ~ Saving Forever


“So, grab some tissues… wine… a pint of häagen-dazs peanut butter and chocolate ice cream… whatever you think will get you through this roller coaster ride of emotions because I promise you will need something, but every emotion you feel while on this ride is so completely and utterly worth it. You do not want to miss out on this 5 star, MUST READ book!” ~Bookslapped
“Once again, Jasinda has given us an emotional roller coaster that is a MUST read.”~ Smut Book Club

“Forever & Always was joyful, heartbreaking, breathtaking, angsty, hopeful and sexy.”~ The Book Blog

“Each page bleeds emotion, heartbreak, tragedy and a deep-seated need for connection. This story is a journey.”~ Vilma’s Book Blog 

“Jasinda has a gift. She can wring you out emotionally one minute, make you swoon the next, make you all hot and bothered then make you cry again. Yet it all is wrapped up in an unputdownable package of realistic characters that you can’t help but love.”~ Ana’s Attic Book Blog
“The letters, inked with affection, pure emotion, genuine and honest – a brilliant masterpiece. Jasinda Wilder, this, my love, was pure genius!” ~ Brandi’s Bookshelf


Merry almost Christmas! I can’t believe that time of year is here already. Last year at this time, I was trying to rewrite Rock Stars Do It Forever all over again because my computer died and took that whole manuscript with it. Do any of you remember that? #goodtimes

It sure looks like Christmas in northern Michigan today! We got a ton of snow last night and it’s the perfect day to snuggle up with a warm drink, a Christmas cookie and a good book. May I suggest my new book(s)?

Forever and Always the first book of the trilogy, released last night and it already getting some amazing reviews! Thank you so much in advance for reviewing. After Forever is now LIVE at Amazon and B&N. It will be delayed at iTunes and Kobo because they are on a holiday shutdown. I will post links on Facebook, Twitter, and my website as soon as they go live. I’ve also put up a preorder for book 3, Saving Forever. That book will release on February 14th. I’m so excited for you to read this series! In my opinion, this is some of the best writing I’ve ever done and some of my most captivating characters. I hope you agree. Links are below!
Happy reading, Merry Christmas, and Happy New Year from all of the Wilder family. 

Purchase LINKS to buy book 1, Forever & Always!

To buy from Amazon US click HERE
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Purchase LINKS for After Forever 

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Preorder book 3 from Amazon US HERE
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